Reliance

The moment when you thought you have already pass it but actually you are still in the exact same spot. It sucks, big time!

So every time when we have something happen in our life, be it good or bad, first person yang kita cari kawan sebab nak share. There's always these few same faces in my mind kalau apa-apa jadi, aku mesti cari dorang dulu. (sorry guys I keep on bothering you guys with my non-important matters).

Something happen and as usual, I always go to these lads. When these bunch of people whom I trust, whom I depend on, whom I rely on, suddenly "unavailable", I feel lost. With no one to talk to, what should I do.

This is what happen bila terlalu bergantung dekat kawan-kawan atau manusia. They can't always be there for you 24/7. We forget that when we are tested, He want us to return back to Him. To ask Him for guidance.

I am a creation. They all are creation. We are insignificant when compare to Him, The Creator. Why are we trying so hard to please and seek attention of other creation that have no power, no nothing? When The Creator is waiting for us to invoke Him.

Nothing to you, Everything to me

Why do I write?

My life story ain't that great.

My life may have zero significant to you.

This is my life, my treasure.

It means nothing to you but it means everything to me.

I serve my Lord, my Queen and my King.

Friend?

We all have that one thing (or entity?) that we called "friend". Who are they? Where do they come from?

We meet all sorts of people throughout our life. School, work place, neighbour or even commuter. They all might becoming your friend. I've met a lot of people from mate and colleague, to friends. There are some friends who really make a significant change in your life. Either positive or negative changes, these people play important role.

Throughout my life, I've met a lot of people and made friends. It can't be denied that not each and everyone of my friends are good. Some are just plain liars. You can't denied that. These are the kind of people that make us mature, make us careful in making friend, in believing people.

When there's evil, there's goodness. (cliche). I have a group of friends which I hold dearly in my heart that I may entrust few of them with my life when the situation come. (double cliche). They are the people that hold my whenever I'm down, the people that doesn't compare me to others, the people who accepted me in their life. These are the people that I hold dearly.

So What I've Been Up To So Far?

Three years have passed since I last blog. What I've been up to? Owh well, to put it easily, here is the breakdown:

-September 2012: I've graduated for my Diploma.

-February 2013   : Went back to Singapore for my National Service check-up. Work part time in Salaam Media International.

-June 2013          : Enlisted for my National Service (NS).

-June 2015          : Done my two years NS. Went back to Malaysia to further studies. Have applied for some uni during the NS period and waiting for their reply.  

-September 2015: My application was rejected due to "number of students". Hearbroken. Registered again for the same course, same university. Went back to Singapore to work.

-November 2015: My application for further studies was rejected again. No reason specified. Heartbroken. Shattered to thousand pieces.

-December 2015: New family member.

-January 2016    : Registered for the same course but it's part-time (previously it is full time study in the main campus).

-June 2016          : Course postponed. No reason specified.

-September 2016: My best friend visited me in Singapore. You never know how much someone would sacrifice for friendship and for that, I thank God for this blessed person. New family member. Arabic Placement Test (APT) for my study postponed.... again.

-October 2016: Leading a "great" life.